One Day at a Time

This morning I got to sleep in till 7am I am very pleased with myself for sure. So today is Sunday the second day of October and it’s so nice outside, the leaves are turning it’s colors and I am here in a warm place in my messy living room sipping on my yerba tea. Yes this place I live in is a total mess, I look at it and my mind has 1000 shades of multi colors. Like a clown immersed in the many colors of the party favors and popped balloons scattered on the ground or in a room. This mess has to give, something has to give, but when and how do I begin to start on this organization of a home? Okay so I surf Facebook on my spare time… well okay, all the time and on it there is a class that is being offered this month here in Grand Junction! The cost is $20 per class and it’s based on organization and how to be successful in studying, I am only interested in the organization part of the class. But if it could help me and get me to pick up some skills in this area of my life I would be so thankful. Yesterday morning while getting ready for work I was in the bathroom by the sink and I looked at the stuff that was on the sink. I stood there for a moment, thoughts were just racing throughout my mind. One thought in particular was, “I really have to organize this area, I have to clean the sink, the toilet and also around the bottom of the toilet too. Oh then there is the tub, must clean the tub for the us family, and pick up the clothes on the floor and empty the trash.” I have heard in a movie, one must start in one room and make it theirs, I’m thinking my room. But the easiest task for me would be the bathroom, it’s small and it’s just right to work on. Then I was thinking maybe one at a time work on another room, of course with the kids help. Yesterday morning was interesting, before I went off to work, my twelve year old got up and started to gather up his clothes. Yea, gathering up his clothes and then some towels! He went and washed his clothes by himself and asked small questions on clothes and separation. I was very amazed and surprised he did this task, I know my kids are capable and I know I am too. It’s just the niche in my brain that needs to be turned on. Then there’s my daughter who is totally going to turn out to be just like me, which I am hoping does not. I have this dream my own kids will turn out better than me, go farther than my own self. Because in reality I am not a super mom, my skills in mommy home maker, well in all words, “sucks!” Then when I even think of marriage, I think “oh my gosh” I am not cut out to be more than a mommy home maker. To make another human being happy is like trying to put out your other eye! Of course, yes of course there are men out there who just want to make the wifey poo happy and of course he does his part. “Honey, I have to pray for a man like this to try to make me happy not the other way around!” As each day goes by I am hoping that my brain will turn a click or two to change, to be ambitious, to be better than it was yesterday. I did something I was supposed to do yesterday, and it was to take my vehicle in to get its oil changed and get its tires rotated and balanced. CHECK MARK for me yesterday! I confess though, I haven’t ran yet, I had two days off and I did not do one running yet. I am pretty bummed about this, and I know I am going to do this task today. I also have my calendar to write my days in again, things I need to do and things I need to accomplish this week. I know one thing, I am not going to be late for work this week. I am going to be early, at least 5-10min early, you know why? Because my kiddies have a whole week off and that means I don’t have to fight tooth and nail to get my daughter out of bed, yay for me! Although considering I have an understanding boss, he is really an awesome boss. He works day in and day out with nothing but females and his wife, which is female too. Anyway, these two are the kindest people on the planet as far as I’m concerned, and the people there are the best. I work with some beautiful people on the planet, even though it is not what I went to school for, it’s a really good step in the right direction. The skills I needed in the area of my degree really has to do with people. Dealing with people day in and day out, people who are rude, people who are sad, people who has substance abuse, and people who are just kind and good. This is what Public Health is all about, it’s all about people and their needs and also what ways I can educate people. For instance, customer service at its finest in a laundry facility, I go out and promote laundry cards and educate them on how beneficial it is to have one. Also it is refundable along with the .75 deposit required for the card, as well as registering it in your name just in case you lose it. Education is a must with people, education on many things which pertain to their environment and to their health. With all this education talk I should know better on my organization, makes me laugh and frustrates me too. Okay I am sitting here at my desk and my kids left an awful mess on the desk. Mind you I have already told them to clean it up, at least twice I have told them. This is the frustration of keeping clean, my kids have selective hearing, which mind you works and yes their selective hearing does work. At least I don’t have to worry about their hearing impairment. So today I have decided to work on the bathroom, at least. We first have to attend church this morning and then maybe check out the Goodwill for a good affordable vacuum cleaner, mine took a dump and no longer is operable. I really liked my vacuum I had, but someday I will buy another vacuum cleaner and I hope by then I will have mastered the art of organization and well defined cleanliness. But for now I am going to take it one day at a time, one day in the bathroom and another day in another room. Patience, it’s all about patience and understanding to yourself, even though it’s hard to live it’s easy to sit and think one plausible moment at a time.