Mid-Week Progress

This morning was a tough morning to get out of bed, I slept so good last night, and I guess it was because I was referred to sleeping with a pillow tucked between my legs. Yes, a pillow tucked between your legs does wonders to your sleeping pattern. When I was pregnant with my two babies long ago, I remember sleeping with a pillow between my legs, and I always slept so well. So now I am up and it is still dark outside and it’s very chilly these days, the leaves are changing the colors of yellow, orange, brown and even maroon color on certain trees. I remember when I took Botany in college we went through the discussion of the changing of leaves. Although I didn’t do so well in Botany I still enjoyed my time in Mr. McCulley’s class. So back to the class, every time fall comes around I think about the subject of the fall season and the changing of leaves.  Why do you think the leaves change their colors at the end of summer and into fall? I thought it has to with the oxidation of the leaves, I say the words oxidation like I really know what it means. Then I try to remember is it a chemical reaction in the atmosphere? My mind is just at a standstill this time of the year, it’s comical to me of what certain things make my mind crazy.  Anyway, let’s get back to my unorganized life, I was supposed to ketchup yesterday morning, but I had a bit of a malfunction with my computer. The other day I specifically told my twelve year old son not to get on the computer and do not download anything. Specifically telling a child is way complicated for them to understand, well he neglected my specification, and after I headed upstairs to go to bed he got onto my computer and downloaded some Minecraft character. I was so upset yesterday morning and so bummed I was not going to be able to blog my daily thoughts. So as usual I spent some time in control panel to uninstall programs other stupid nonsense trash. As I did there two I was able to get off, then there was one last thing which was very stubborn and it was not going to get off my computer at all. It was something I had to take to a specialist in town, I thought oh great, here we go again with this technical problem with my computer. Always on my computer, although my son has his own computer but it is down due to some virus malware junk that completely took over. But that is my guess, I liked his computer too. So yesterday morning was a complete disaster. I headed to work as usual and it was busy, busy with insurance projects of restoration work. Tons of bags and my boss just pacing back and forth to make room for the job, immediate chaos in the dry cleaning laundry facility, but it was good. We all helped one another in the job which I heard is supposed to be done in 7 days, normally the projected time is two weeks. This was going to be a hectic 7 days. So this morning I am going to write a bit of my success of my cleanliness before I head to chaos. The other day I came home and I just stared at the abyss of stuff everywhere in the living room, in the kitchen, in the bathroom and in my room. Then I looked at the kids, I guess the living monster was in my eyes, because I think my kids saw red. I directed them to this and that and I got a garbage bag and just threw stuff in it and cleared stuff off of our dinner table and swept the kitchen floor while my kids continued picking up. My son was upstairs cleaning up around his room and in the bathroom. Then my daughter was in the kitchen cleaning dishes, and putting them away. This moment made me feel almost free, but there was one thing lacking… a vacuum cleaner. I will have to invest in a new vacuum cleaner, either that or order a new part for my Shark vacuum cleaner, I love my vacuum cleaner it’s like the best once it starts. I giggle at the statement it works, the suction works but the motor to pick up crap on the floor does not. Aside from my dilemma of a vacuum cleaner, I was pleased the other night. My kids made me proud and they do make me proud regardless of anything they do. They are little humans who require much love and much attention. They are little humans that need much grace and much understanding at the same time. I was told one time, on several occasions from my mom and from my beautiful aunt from Monument Valley, UT, “Your daughter and your son just wants you to love them, so love your daughter and love your son.” My aunt used to tell me not to get upset or mad at my kids, they just want to be loved, so love them no matter what they do. You know she was right, it’s not about them being who you want them to be, regardless of how people raise their kids at the end of the day we just need to love them and set aside the things that disappoint us. I think as parents we lack the discipline of loving our children, I know sometimes I do, I just need to sit back and be gracious to them. My dad has always said, “Treat your kids like they’re kings and queens.” I used to think my dad was high on something when he said that, but I remember my parents treated my baby brother as such, my mom just loved her son, her only son so much, and it took little discipline to raise him. I mean at the beginning he did receive his fair share of discipline, not much, not as much as us girls had. I guess as a single parent I have my moments with my kids, but I do not spank them like “I’m spank happy” toward them. I am always afraid if I step out of line with my kids on disciplining them with spanking they will be taken away from me. Due to the fact that I am a single parent. This is my worst fear is someone taking my kids away from me, I truly adore and I truly  love my children that even fear comes upon me on losing them. Anyway, it has been a wonderful two days with just being a mom and loving my two children who are not perfect but beautiful.