The birds are singing outside more and more every day. It is so nice to see the seasons changing. I personally enjoy the time change and hope it stays permanent.
In my last entry, I was overwhelmed with depression. When I posted it, I felt the need to share the depth of my experience. Mental health is a serious issue, especially in today’s world, and I have found support within the company I work for. There was a turning point when I sincerely needed to talk to someone. Do you know the scary part? It’s how the mind can twist reality, convincing you of lies. I have battled with self-doubt and a lack of confidence, often taking others' words at face value and second-guessing myself. Through texts and emails, words can be misinterpreted, and even that can manipulate the mind.
It's a constant effort to remind myself not to take everything so seriously and to ignore the negative thoughts my mind conjures up. The mind can be a strange place, filled with unknown fears that can manifest into reality. I truly believe that having someone to talk to—someone who will simply listen—is a blessing. It acts as a form of mental and emotional purification, releasing negativity and offering healing. Speaking your thoughts out loud can be frightening, but it is a necessary part of the healing process.
Recently, I started reading a historical fiction novel about Sacajawea, and I am already on the fifth chapter. I am fascinated by the amount of research and dedication it took the author to craft this story. It took her ten years to write it, and her attention to detail is incredible. This novel paints a vivid picture of Sacajawea's resilience. As a young preteen, she endured the torment of being a slave to other tribes. Her journey was filled with unimaginable hardships, and yet she survived with remarkable strength. Her story puts my own struggles into perspective. If she could endure such trials, I can certainly manage my own.
Reading this book has ignited a newfound love for reading within me. It amazes me how an author can weave words together to create such powerful narratives. I aspire to write a book one day—a story that captures minds and provides comfort and inspiration, just as this book is helping me.
Another book that holds great value is the Bible. Some may view it as a purely religious text, but it also stands as a historical document filled with real events. Exploring the Bible has provided me with insight and encouragement. I would love to visit the places where these historical events took place, just as I would enjoy exploring the lands connected to Sacajawea's journey. Such trips would offer a deeper, tangible connection to these incredible stories.
I have also found comfort in positive affirmations. Recently, I came across one that resonated with me: "Each night before you go to bed, say these words: 'I know something wonderful will happen for me, to me tomorrow.' Then in the morning, repeat: 'I know something wonderful will happen for me, to me today.'" I have started saying these affirmations for myself, my kids, my boyfriend, my dad, and my family. And, of course, I circle back to myself.
I am grateful for this space to share my thoughts—from the struggles of my mind to the uplifting discoveries I encounter. I also cherish the love I have for my boyfriend and the journey of raising my children. Last night, I looked through old pictures of my kids and me, from their infancy to now. My daughter is soon to be 18, and my eldest is already 21. Time flies. The journey has not been easy. I have faced heartbreak and unexpected turns, but the outcome is beautiful, and I am thankful for where we are today.
I will continue to share my journey here as life unfolds. Thank you for reading, and I will be back with more soon. Have a wonderful day.
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